I had the chance to finally watch the movie Harriet. What an awesome movie of courage and bravery. I think my family was tired of me by the end of the movie because I definitely picked it apart and talked through the whole thing. I feel that every movie has an important theme and if we pay close attention it can give us an encouraging message that we can apply to our lives. Am I weird for doing that or is it something you do as well?
While watching the movie I learned that Harriet was born into slavery. She was born bound and shackled; however, she turned a bad situation into something great when she decided to walk into her God given identity and take her role as leader. She did not let fear hinder her from moving forward into the thing that she knew God had called her to do. She operated in confidence and faith and because of that she was able to lead hundreds of slaves to freedom through the underground railroad. I can imagine she had some bad days. There were times when she was frustrated and overwhelmed. She may even had times when she wanted to give up and quit but she knew that in order for her to be free, in order for other slaves to be free, she had to press. There were some people she had to leave behind. There were some things and people that she had to let go of in order to be free. Everybody is not meant to go with you were you are going no matter how much you want them too.
I’m learning that my plans are not God’s plans. He knows what’s best even when I don’t understand. I’ve been on this journey of acceptance. I was astounded when he showed me that I was still writing my mom in my story. I was still including her into things as if she was still here. The same night I watched Harriet, I also cooked supper and completely ruined the food for my family because I was still cooking as if she had to eat too. I did not add any salt because mama couldn’t have salt. I was so use to taking care of her and cooking for her. I realized that I still haven’t let mama go. So I pray that God will give me the strength to let her go. Not of the memories or the love that I have for her but to let go of the plans that I had for her. Lord help me to accept that your will was done and help my heart to accept that she is really gone. Help my heart to understand that although mama is not here physically, her spirit will live on forever. So like Harriet help me to be brave and courageous and to not be afraid to let go so that I can receive all that you have for me and be who you have created me to be. Are you still holding on to something or someone that you shouldn’t be? Are you ready to let it go?