The entire family got up early the next morning and they went to worship the Lord once more. Then they returned home to Ramah. When Elkanah slept with Hannah, the Lord remembered her. – 1 Samuel 1:19
It’s easy sometimes to think that God has forgotten about us. It seems like the more we try, the harder this journey gets. Is it that the journey gets harder though or is that we find it hard to give up control? Is it that this journey really gets harder or is that we have a hard time waiting? I’ve found that usually when I am in a frenzy, overwhelmed and frustrated are the times when I am trying to write my own story. It’s usually the times when I am trying to fix things on my own and trying to figure everything out by my own understanding. I’ve noticed that during the times when I am extremely afraid and anxious is when I’m having a hard time trusting God or maybe I feel that he has forgotten me. Do you ever feel this way or is just me? Are there times on your journey when you forget that God is the author and the finisher of your faith? Do you sometimes lean on your own understanding when God clearly asks us not?
I think of Hannah’s journey when she was having a hard time waiting, when she was in limbo about her future. She was ridiculed and taunted by her husband’s other wife. Yes, Hannah’s guy had another gal lol but seriously I guess it was okay to take more than wife during those times. Needless to say Elkanah’s second wife made fun of Hannah because she was not able to give him a child, at least not yet. She made Hannah feel useless and worthless. This really bothered Hannah because she really wanted her own child and she really wanted to give her husband a child. I can imagine the emotional pain Hannah must have felt. She prayed fervently day and night for God to give her child. She prayed so much in the temple that Elijah thought she was drunk but Hannah wasn’t drunk she was desperate. She was tired of waiting. She was ready to receive what God had promised her; however, it wasn’t until Hannah was humble enough to offer her promise back to the Lord that she was able to receive it. She told the Lord that if he would bless her with a son that she would give him back as an offering. It was then that the Lord remembered Hannah and Samuel was born. Has God placed a vision in your heart? Has he made you a promise? Are you willing to give that vision and that promise back to the Lord so he can use it for his glory?
If you are in a season of waiting like Hannah and you are growing weary, I think it’s time that you give up whatever it is that you are holding on to. Give it back to the Lord because he knows what to do with it. It’s hard to walk into a new season full of promises and blessings when you haven’t let go of the old. We are still holding on to our old ways of thinking. We are still holding on to our old ways of doing things. Listen, God can not put new wine into old wine skin. We are still asking God why when God is telling us to let it go. Hannah had to let go of her perception and how she wanted things to turn out too. She just wanted a baby to love and cuddle but God had different plans. He had Hannah waiting because he knew that she was going to birth a prophet that would go to the nations. So I pray today that whatever you are holding on to that is preventing you from moving forward in the things that God has called you to, that God would help you to let go and give you the courage to go forth. Amen!