I’ve been struggling with the concepts of moving forward and moving on. What’s the difference? Is it possible to move on from a traumatic event, a heart break or disappointment. After spending much time in the presence of God I realize that there is a difference and moving forward and moving on are both possible. After gaining clarity and understanding I realized that I had physically began to move forward after the loss of my mom, after the heartbreak and the hurt. I dug deeper into my relationship with God and became more active in my church. I recognized the gifts that God had placed within me and I began to use them; however, something still did not feel right. I still was not at peace. There was something that was still troubling me and I could not figure out what . It wasn’t long after all of the pondering and praying that God revealed to me that I had not moved on. Yes , there is a difference! My heart was still in the same place. My heart was still stuck in January of 2019 and here’s the big one, my heart was still holding on to mama. I wanted to let go and move one but I didn’t know how. How can you just let go of someone that you’ve loved and helped and taken care of for so long. I guess we can sometimes be loyal to a fault. I guess I felt that if I let go I would of have been letting mama down. I guess I believed that if I let go I would be alone and the fear of being abandoned was too much to bare. I prayed for God to supernaturally intercede on my behalf and to help me to let go. I give her back to you God and I’m sorry for trying to holding on to something that did not belong to me . You loaned her to me but she was never really mine. Thank you Lord for letting me borrow her for 35 years. She was the best mom a girl could have but now I must let her go. I give my heart permission to smile again and I give my heart permission to really be happy again. You can be free now mama because I’m moving on. There is a difference and I’m choosing both!
Published by NekiLynn Inspire
Hi everyone. I'm Nekitta Sutton. I've experienced major disappointments, setbacks and losses in life. During those times I had to hold on to my faith and find strength to continue on. Through the trials and sufferings I realized that I was more than a conqueror, I was a survivor. I began to gain knowledge and grow as a person by activating my faith and reading God's word. My hopes are to encourage the masses so that you will be able to regain control over your life and start living again as well. It takes a lot of work and can sometimes be painful but I do know that it's possible and well worth it. View more posts