It’s so hard to say Goodbye!

As I pondered on the loss of my mom there was an unsettling in my spirit. I prayed and asked God why was I feeling this way. I could not understand why I was not at peace but God revealed to me that I was feeling this way because I never said goodbye. Everything happened so suddenly and her passing was unexpected. I sat in dismay with tears in my eyes although amazed at the revelation God had just given me. WOW! After a year I finally realized that I had not said goodbye. But why is it so hard to say goodbye? Why is it so hard to let go? Why is it so frightening? I guess I felt that saying goodbye meant I would forget about her. I believed it meant I would discard the memories we created together and the moments we shared. I’m telling you I was in a fix. God comforted me however and made me aware that saying goodbye and letting go does not mean that I would forget her and everything that we had experienced together. He reassured me that letting go doesn’t happen all at once. I now understand that it is a process and that it comes about in steps. The next step on my process of letting go is saying goodbye. So I say goodbye mama and I’ll say it every day until it sinks deep down into my heart. It’s hard to say goodbye and it’s scary but I know that it is a necessary part of my journey of grief and that it brings me closer to the road of acceptance.

Published by NekiLynn Inspire

Hi everyone. I'm Nekitta Sutton. I've experienced major disappointments, setbacks and losses in life. During those times I had to hold on to my faith and find strength to continue on. Through the trials and sufferings I realized that I was more than a conqueror, I was a survivor. I began to gain knowledge and grow as a person by activating my faith and reading God's word. My hopes are to encourage the masses so that you will be able to regain control over your life and start living again as well. It takes a lot of work and can sometimes be painful but I do know that it's possible and well worth it.

6 thoughts on “It’s so hard to say Goodbye!

  1. Hello Nekitta,
    Thank you for the honesty as you process your grief journey. Yes, saying goodbye to one so dear is difficult even if you are with them at the time. There is emotion behind our “why?” questions. Many times the why is difficult to answer, or no to answer at all. Our emotion behind the why can be determined more times than not. Immediately after you ask the why questions you do a great job of reconciling yourself to the fact of losing your mom. Your heart will let you know when you reach what you call, “acceptance.” This uncovers another layer of what it means to be human, to be made in the image of God. Bless you, my friend.

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    1. Thank you so much for your wisdom on this topic. I prayed and asked God to give me clarity and he sent you to comment on this post. Again thank you! I really needed that! Blessings to you as well❤🙏

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      1. Hi Nekitta! Alan here again. You are doing a wonderful service for people by blogging your grief journey. This takes courage in bearing your soul and care for others. Please take care of yourself.

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  2. I love your heart and vulnerability sweetie! You are helping so many people while healing your own soul in the process. Grief is so hard and so different for everyone. Thank you for sharing your heart. God bless you sweet friend. Praying for you. Love and hugs💗🙏🏻

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  3. Thanks Nicole! I’ve found writing to be therapeutic. I just decided to make my personal journal public. We never know how God will use us when we make ourselves available. Blessings to you too blog friend lol❤🙏

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