As I pondered on the loss of my mom there was an unsettling in my spirit. I prayed and asked God why was I feeling this way. I could not understand why I was not at peace but God revealed to me that I was feeling this way because I never said goodbye. Everything happened so suddenly and her passing was unexpected. I sat in dismay with tears in my eyes although amazed at the revelation God had just given me. WOW! After a year I finally realized that I had not said goodbye. But why is it so hard to say goodbye? Why is it so hard to let go? Why is it so frightening? I guess I felt that saying goodbye meant I would forget about her. I believed it meant I would discard the memories we created together and the moments we shared. I’m telling you I was in a fix. God comforted me however and made me aware that saying goodbye and letting go does not mean that I would forget her and everything that we had experienced together. He reassured me that letting go doesn’t happen all at once. I now understand that it is a process and that it comes about in steps. The next step on my process of letting go is saying goodbye. So I say goodbye mama and I’ll say it every day until it sinks deep down into my heart. It’s hard to say goodbye and it’s scary but I know that it is a necessary part of my journey of grief and that it brings me closer to the road of acceptance.
Published by NekiLynn Inspire
Hi everyone. I'm Nekitta Sutton. I've experienced major disappointments, setbacks and losses in life. During those times I had to hold on to my faith and find strength to continue on. Through the trials and sufferings I realized that I was more than a conqueror, I was a survivor. I began to gain knowledge and grow as a person by activating my faith and reading God's word. My hopes are to encourage the masses so that you will be able to regain control over your life and start living again as well. It takes a lot of work and can sometimes be painful but I do know that it's possible and well worth it. View more posts