Can you believe that I fell and hurt my knee. There was a big bug flying towards me and instead of facing it and crushing it with my shoe, I ran from it and in the midst of my running I tripped over my feet and fell on my knee. It was scared pretty bad but it is beginning to heal now; however, before the healing began I was in a lot of pain. I didn’t want anybody to touch it. I could not wash it in the shower. It even hurt when I would put my jeans on. I was in a fix! I covered it with a bandage for the first few days because I could not stand for anything to rub against it. Every night I would clean it and put a fresh bandage on it but it seemed that each time I would remove the old bandage it would hurt worse than it did before. I just did not understand that.
As my knee is healing now, I think of the pain I feel every time I remember the night I loss my mom. I think of the pain I feel when I realize I can not call her on the phone and tell her about my day or when I think of how I use to go in her room just to nag her and she would end up kicking me out. I think of the pain I feel when I remember all of the times we went shopping together or went to get our nails done together. Each time I remember it feels like it just happened and the pain seems worse than before but then I remember that God heals the broken hearted and binds up our wounds. I’m encouraged to not stay stuck in those moments. I’m encouraged to not look at them as pain but as wonderful memories that we created together and then my heart is filled with laughter and joy. I’m encouraged to stop pulling the bandage off of the wounds of my heart that God is trying to heal. I’m reminded that it’s Ok to take steps towards moving forward. I’m reminded that it’s Ok to let go. I’m reminded that it is Ok to Heal. It’s hard and it hurts but it’s ok. Thank you God for reminding me!!!