Sometimes it’s hard to see the light when your mind and heart is consumed with darkness. It’s hard to see the brighter side. How can I have hope when everything around me is screaming despair? Look again? What exactly am I looking for? Why should I believe that this time things will work out? Why should I believe that this time will be different? I ask myself these questions so many times and if I really want to know the answer I guess I will just have to look again.
As I was pondering my thoughts I had an epiphany. I thought about a time when I was in high school and I was riding with my bestfriend. She had just broke up with her boyfriend and she was so distraught. Needless to say her mind must have been on everything but the road because we ended up crashing her new car that night. Yes, she ran a stop sign and total lost her car. We were banged up pretty bad, physically. It wasn’t until weeks later that I realized I was also mentally and emotionally scared by the accident as well. I was so afraid to drive again. If I had an airplane I think I would of flown every where even to the grocery store. I really did not want to drive anymore nor ride with anyone. I was done with vehicles forever, so I thought. After a while, however, I mustard up the courage and the strength to get back in the car and to drive. I knew that if I wanted my life to get back on track and to resume the activities that I was involved in before the accident, I had to face my fears and drive. I had to get to work, to school and last but definitely not least I missed going shopping.
I would like to believe that it’s the same way with our spiritual walks. Life can throw some major blows that leaves us feeling hurt, abandoned, alone and afraid. I know these feelings all too well. We are disappointed and heartbroken. Things just didn’t go the way we hoped they would. But even through the pain we can’t quit. We have to pick ourselves up, dust ourselves off and get back to life. We have to look again. We have to try again. We have to believe that God will keep his word and fulfill his promises to us. We have to believe that there is more to life than heartbreak and sadness. That it’s more to life than just grief and sorrow. So I am learning to trust his divine plan even though I don’t understand it. I do believe that he has my best interest in mind and that it’s all coming together for my good. I am afraid but I think I have the courage now to ” LOOK AGAIN” !!!
Bible References ( 1 Kings 18:41-46) ( Jeremiah 29:11) ( Romans 8:28)