The dictionary tells us that anxiety is a feeling of worry, nervousness or unease. It is typically triggered by traumatic events. We all know that losing anything can be very difficult to deal with especially losing a loved one. I believe anxiety and grief goes hand-in-hand. I experienced severe anxiety after the loss of my dad. I worried continuously. I wondered if he was afraid during his transition or if he felt any pain. My mind wondered all of the time. I can remember being so afraid. It is horrifying to constantly think and worry about things that’s really beyond your control. I worried about my own life and mortality. I worried for my mom, husband, children and other close loved ones like my brother and his family. I was a mess. My mind was so consumed with negative thinking. I would find it hard to sleep at night and when I finally would fall asleep I would awake in such a panic. My anxiety was at an all time high. My mind was playing tricks on me. I didn’t know what to do or who I could talk to that would truly understand how I was feeling and what I was dealing with. So I decided to turn to my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. I prayed fervently for God to help me, to heal my mind and to shed some light in my life because it seemed so dark and I felt so alone. I began to study his word and it was then I learned of the promises that he made to me and to you for that matter. So every time a negative thought would try to creep in my mind I would counteract it with the word of God (a positive thought).
- You are a dead woman-not, “God came that I may have life and have it more abundantly” (John 10:10)
- You are a nobody-lies, ” She is more precious than jewels and nothing compares to her (Proverbs 3:15)
- You are so ugly-incorrect, “I am fearfully and wonderfully made” (Psalm 139:14)
- Your dreams will never come true-let’s see about that, ” Be strong and do not give up, for your work will be rewarded” (1 Chronicles 4:10) “Take delight in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart” (Psalm 37:4)
- You will never get better, ” By my 39 stripes you are healed” (Isaiah 53:5)
- You will never recover-bet on it, ” I will restore everything that you lost. I’ll come back and pick up the pieces from all of the scattered places” ( Deuteronomy 30:3-13)
I immersed myself in scripture daily. I began to do it so much that I felt as if sheds of weight was lifting off of me. My thoughts were becoming clearer. Doubts were diminished. I was on the road to recovery. I suddenly felt stronger mentally and physically. My words and thoughts were becoming more positive. It seemed unreal. I was actually regaining control of my life and starting to live again.
” The Serenity Prayer”
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change
Courage to change the things I can and Wisdom to know the difference.